Damn, after tryna figure out how to a post a damn post, this shit makes my life somewhat more complicated hahaha. Anyhow today or the weekend was GOOD. spent the time w/ fam and good friends, and couldnt have had it any other way. Redwood City was dope, havent been there in awhile, first time, when i was researching venues with Phase 1, second time, when I took my Ate Mirra to her appointment there. 3rd time’s a charm cuz I enjoyed myself walking around Downtown and had a few pastries at Cafe La Tartine. Nice day to just relax under an umbrella eating pastries, watching teens get picked up by their parents, and the sun glare down at your eyes and observing managers interviewing a potential candidate and old ladies having tea time lol. As soon as I got picked up from my homegirl we went back to the rollerrink, which hella smelled BAD to pickup her cousin and her friends (14th bday celebration), and then they watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre, while I went to Tito Dennis’ 50th bday, which had HELLA HEADS and NO PARKING lol. its cool though.

I didn’t eat much, I don’t know why. I just ate the tripe from the kare-kare and sansrival thats it. LOVE the fam time though, my niece LEXI says HIIIIII, she’s so cute, she’s like ONE, but she’s like a really outgoing white girl lol, but super cuuute.. my nephew Sammie, he’s THREE, he’s so technologically up to date its ridiculous, he’s playing games on my cousin’s iphone and playing with his CARS (mcqueen and tow-mater) lol. And then the drankin’ began. I drank a lil’ cuz as everyone knows when IM DRUNK, I’M DRUNK! i go VALLEJO, I started to BE the ONE lol, but for some reason I like to CLEAN. weird. i know. left their house at 115am. super tired.

This morning, I was so tired so out of it, I almost slept in church, not good, then dipped to walnut creek where I usually have an ICED SOY whatever, and have a newspaper, and then visit the Oakland Hills/Rockridge area to kill time while waiting for my cousins. As usual, we go to visit my gramma in downtown sf and then we went over to LOU’s cafe’s grand opening, my cousin’s brand new cafe on geary. Man are they GOOD. It’s 5017 Geary in S.F. GOOD FOOD, great pIX by tito manny, surround sound, wi-fi, and subtle cozy colors for a NOT TO BE MISSED Sandwich joint in the city. TJ cut the ribbon w/ his mom Auntie Romana and shared the venture with his fam, his friends came through, but it was mostly Brodeth, Catalan, Soncuya, and Sales Fam (which is basically the heart of Sales Fam combined) lol. Food was delish, I esp. loved the LLB Special and design your own cuz I jus really needed toasted, extra spread, good meat, and spicy whatever. Their coffee was pretty good too, an ICED SOY whatever. TJ also gave a speech about sharing his venture with us, his friends, and having Lou’s cafe as a success under his belt, and especially thanked by Ate Jenece for her hardwork and dedication for the cafe. She drew and wrote the whole menu on the wall, kinda reminded me of Crepevine. It was cool. Dipped to kamei and picked up sample cups and ice cream containers, then the cousins wanted to go to Gamma-Go.

Went back to grammas, celebrated Manang Inday’s birthday with a cake from Red Ribbon that tita kharee bought, a Buko Pandan, UBE, Mocha, and Chocolate Variety and then tita dang put gas in my car as I brought them home. Now i’m at home, the GOOD news is that healthcare coverage is extending to children up til the age of 26, cuz theyre prediction is that even with a college degree some folks will have a hard time finding a job. Watched undercover boss and the apprentice, both good shows, and now im having a hardtime sleeping.

I miss Sheryl alot. I love the way she keeps me safe and secure. The way she makes me feel is different than im used to and not common at all. She makes me feel confident as a person, and is practically the reason why I wake up everyday. When Im down and out, I think of her, and the way she keeps me grounded. But after hearing about what happened with her today, is why I can’t sleep. I’m hella worried, hella scared, and hella nervous. I mean being DISTANT is HARD esp. when you’re significant other is so FAR you can’t do SHIT. it kinda brings me back to her past, and what happened, but I don’t want to be like that, i want her to BE HAPPY, and not worry so much about whats going on around her. I just hope she’s ok, shes doin fine, and she makes stronger long term decisions, cuz this shit aint crackin. i hope i can get through the night without having to worry as much…

Rough week, man i swear, all the things i do are just out of my way, yet i still stick it through hoping it will better the friendship, am i supposed to be patient, or am i supposed to already let go?

I guess what really got me today was the disrespect and how I’m always hiding in the corner, and put my guard up for no one to react upon, to get in my way of my feelings, and to overstep my boundaries. It makes me build a wall for me to act the way that I do, which is negative, and careless about anything and everything. The only thing that made me happy after all was said and done was when I had dinner with some friends that made Rendang Beef and Tinola, and for dessert I made eclairs, Root Beer and Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream.

After tryna figure out how to make ringtones, how to understand Palm’s latest updates for the pixi, the only thing that really makes my life worth living is my girlfriend, Sheryl. I hella miss her, I mean we didn’t even talk for all that long last night, and its been awhile since we’ve really had a good conversation or a conversation at that, since its been about six days that has passed. Everytime I talk to Sheryl, nothing else matters, the world stops and for the duration its just about me and her. There’s just something about her that makes me feel so good about myself and gives me that boost in positive energy everytime I start my day. If she called now, I’d tell her that I love her and I appreciate having her in my life.